Normal - Abnormal Feelings

The day after fathers day all my facebook friends and family are posting pictures from their "normal" fathers day.  It makes me long for the days when Joshua was younger and was not quite as hard to handle as he is now.  He has never been an easy child.  I find myself somewhat depressed about how his entire day turned out.  I got to talk to all of my children,  they all know I love them and I know they love me.  Just seems like something was missing in the day.  There was not alot of joy in the house.